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A piece inspired by a person who is no longer a part of my life. A person who helped me change for the better

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You reminded me of home

In all the best ways

The timbre of your voice as you sang my name

The melanin of your skin as it glistened in the summer sun

The genuineness of your smile as you watched me walk into a room

The warmth, the comfort, the firmness of your touch

The sincerity of your words when you told me you loved me

You were not my first lover

But you were the first I made love to

The first I had love with

The first to make me realize

I am special

You were the last time I allowed myself to be nothing more than sexy

And the first time I was so much more than beautiful

You gave me joy, and you gave me confidence

I relive that joy occasionally

And I relish that confidence daily

The confidence to pursue what I want

And to disregard what does not suit me

The confidence to deny the queendom you offered me

When I realized

A crown does not befit me

We were not meant to be

And though tears flowed for seemingly endless nights

Eventually they dried

The storm of emotions calmed

We moved on, we healed

I have settled into a new home

I choose to be alone here

But remnants of our past remain

Memories of your voice, your skin, your smile, your touch

The joy I relive occasionally

And the confidence I relish daily

But in this home, I sing my own name